How can I get over her?
I want to try to keep this as short as possible. I’ll just say that several years ago I developed very strong feelings for a coworker who was married at the time. I never acted on those feelings, but I think she had a pretty good idea. I also had a pretty good idea that she was very unhappy in her marriage. We ended up having a bit of a falling-out. I went on with my life, found another job, and she went on doing her thing, even moving out of state.
It’s been four years, and her marriage has since fallen apart. She’s now divorced and very clearly abusing substances. I’ve been following her social media, where she’s made references to the fact that she may be considering selling herself for money (I believe this means starting an OnlyFans) and talks about how she can’t wait to get new tits. I got to know her well enough to learn about her family’s history, her own struggles, and some of her vices.
Bottom line, when I look at her, I see a woman on a horrible road. I think she’s just gonna end up bouncing from one toxic relationship to another and may end up doing serious harm to herself. I don’t think I’m being hyperbolic. People who still work with her have told me that she’s been a wreck lately.
As much as I would like to reach out and talk to her again, I know that she has moved on, and I need to as well. I don’t know how. For some reason, deep in my heart I feel like we’re meant for each other.
We’ve had similar struggles in life, and I know that there was a connection between us a while back. Maybe it’s a savior complex on my part, but I can’t stop thinking about her. If something bad were to happen to her, I would blame myself. I could’ve done something. I don’t know what to do.