u/Beginning_Sorbet_406

I really wanted to give up and move on cause during my self-concept work I was literally been tortured from the past memories
But I just can't
Whenever I decided to give up the thought of 'ok because now I'm givig up it will happen naturally because technically it's the same with that i'm detached'
Then the spiral starts all over again
Please help what can i do and what should i do now
I feel like literally stuck in the manifesting loop..

I wanted to focus on myself and self concept
Recently I was manifesting my sp but decided to kind of give up
But it tured out I just can't.. I'm just so obsessed and maybe kind of addicted on past thoughts
I quit my job, I lost soooo many people ever since the break up
Now it's like I have too much time and zero person to even talk to not even in person but even someone to text
I have literally zero interest or motivation on anything all I do is just staying in my room i dont want to eat i dont want to go out
I tried the things that I once really loved but they didn't make me feel anything and I also kind of gave up on job searching
Maybe it's depression idk it's surprising that i haven't thought that i dont want to live yet
All i do is thinking about him missing him and feel terribly hurt it's not I just broke up, we broke up 7months ago and there was ups and downs, not on manifestation but on my feelings and mood
My chest is tightened almost all day idk what to do

I really do believe the law is true, cause the law just make so much sense to me

However I just want to give up on my current manifestation, my ex

Maybe I don't want to forgive my ex or myself when I was with my ex

I will at some point in my life but i don't know it just feels like I would not be able to be the myself who I want to be and will be if I keep manifesting my ex

I just want to stop all the technique or whatever you call, the affirmation, SATS, eft tapping

I just want to feel really deeply what I feel, even when it's anger, sadness, loneliness, or whatever negative feeling. I actually kind of want to hate my ex, so that I can feel free that I broke the chain

I am really sorry if this post was discouraging but as I do really believe the law is true, I want you all get your result as soon as you want

I want to focus on only myself but nothing else

But then even when I'm writing this I can't stop thinking like 'oh maybe now it will actually happen in 3d' something like that lol I'm tired of myself obsessively thinking about manifestation

Idk I want you all to be happy and loved