Was buzzing my hair a manic episode?
I genuinely have never experienced this behavior before in all my years of struggling with anxiety, depression, ADHD and now probably a late diagnosis of autism.
I just picked up the clippers and did it. Nothing really made me want to do it and I did it anyway.
In 2025 my grandmother started experiencing dementia, and all of her built up trauma just opened up the flood gates with anger, yelling and violence towards me.
Okay fast forward to Aug 2025. I'm able to get out of the house and move in with a new roommate. Great. Turns out my roommate is a very angry person and also extremely triggering to my already shaken nervous system.
Then my cat died.
Then my grandma died.
No PTO to mourn my cat or my grandmother.
Jan 2026, I move in with my partner and it's fantastic and I feel like I'm finally to a place where I can just feel the grief I need for my grandma. For my cat. For all the trauma I'm trying to heal from and keep doing EMDR to help me become a better version of myself.
I am overwhelmed with burnout from my repetitive low paying job, possible late diagnosis of autism, and struggle with figuring out what career I want to pursue.
It's just so much. I'm not trying to seek attention which is the hard part because that's what it's gonna look like from the outside 😔