u/Beautiful_Wishbone15

I dont mean to spam this sub by posting, but while looking for resources on slavery i keep finding excuses made by white historians. "It wasnt THAT bad!!! We didnt dehumanize you at all! All you did was pick cotton and get whipped if you didnt!", y'all did WAY more than that. WAY worse than that.

And i HATE when they treat it as a one-off incident. "yeaaaah buck breaking was real but it only happened a teeny itty bit!!"

This shit is why i dont trust or like them, they always be saying shit to justify it and then you look into it yourself and it was way worse. Just because not every black male slave experienced buck breaking doesnt mean it barely happened. Its one thing to be factual but it still rubs me the wrong way, it sounds like they are trying to downplay it by putting emphasize on how "little" it happened. For example, them bombing black towns. They'll be like "okaayy but it was only a few..." SO? Idc if it was a few, y'all still did it proudly! They have the education and still finding ways to cope with they white guilt. Education is elevation, but clearly doesnt mean people will be acting like it all the time.

Dont read if you don't wanna be annoyed alongside me.

​Seeing them say things like "we fought to end slavery " and say "but black people owned slaves too​! " annoys me because you can feel their guilt and they trying anything BUT unpacking racism and their white privilege to cope with it. Like shit y'all colonized a lot and did a lot of shitty things, if I were y'all ​I would feel shitty too. Which I have for other privileges I have (Cisgender and fully abled) but guess what, I didn't take it out on trans people or disabled people. I reflected and began unpacking any trans phobia or ableism I found within myself.

Y'all got no excuses, it's honestly why so many people don't bother differentiating y'all from y'all ancestors. Cause y'all be pulling the same shit and excusing, downplaying, etc, the shit they did! ​​​

I've heard that "love bombing" is the right term but i've only seen it in the context of bring given gifts, so i dont know if what my mother does is "extreme enough" to be called love bombing because she doesnt give gifts but she does either:

1. Act like it didnt happen

Or 2. Say shes sorry and give me hugs. She would especially do this one the most when i was younger and she yelled at me or hit me, then would hold me and apologize and say she "had to". She obviously didnt change and it was a cycle of this.

Not just the bad ones, but the neutral or good ones. Im dominican for context, spanish is our main language and i want to learn more of it to be able to communicate with other dominicans better but i also dont want to at the same time. Why? Because i know we likely would have had a different language if it werent for them spainiards. Im feeling so conflicted, i need some words of advice or comfort. It is my culture, but i feel isolated from other dominicans since im anti-thiest and also embrace my blackness. Im anti-thiest because i dislike religion for many reasons, one of them being that it was forced upon my people.

I cant tell other dominicans this for obvious reasons, i'll get told im "being too woke". Despite the way i feel, i also am proud of being a black dominican because of what we endured. But colonization did its damage on my country and still has its poison stuck in my country. I would prefer to stick to just journaling this thought, but i need some advice and/or support.

Y'all be in the wrong and you just wanna argue and argue and argue and be right. Y'all get disproven and given facts n shit and y'all double the fuck down.

And THAT is why we dont bother with teaching y'all shit. Because you dont ask to listen and learn, you ask you argue. It is pointless to argue with y'all when y'all dont wanna learn shit.

Im not gonna take my sweet time explaining to you the differences between bipoc making generalizations about white people and white people making generalizations about us. Why? BECAUSE YOU WONT LISTEN. I aint gonna tell you how racism cannot systematically harm you when you're just gonna double the fuck down! Its not worth the time of most bipoc to try and teach y'all when y'all just look for points to argue instead of accepting being in the wrong. It is a FACT that systematic racism is alive and well. Not an opinion, but a fact.

Its been on my mind, and im wondering if y'all would love to have it posted when im done. It will take me a bit though because i want to verify the resources well. If you have any good resources to add, feel free to drop them here!

They always have some audacity to be comparing slavery to animal cruelty. Literally comparing black people to animals. And also seem to dislike indigenous people and their hunting practices. God. They are so fucking annoying, i just had to get this off my chest.

White ppl be stressing the FUCK out of me. Sometimes i dont mind hearing about shitty things they did, but other times it makes me feel all sorts of emotions. Mainly stress, worry, and even a bit of fear. It gives my forehead this weird warm feeling and it makes me feel like im a bit shaky, also it makes me feel a bit of nausia. My heart rate goes up. Im making this post so i can keep it mind and also to remind y'all that taking a break from social media (or very carefully curating them) is important. I do have a scrolling problem so this might be a bit tough for me.