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I am a 25 year old woman. I just finished my bachelors in medicine and surgery and i am a doctor now. My journey in medical school was horrible. I was a bad student. I fell into a deep depression because of bullying in the second year. There was this obese girl in my class, she spread rumors about me, that im a camgirl, a slut, i was ugly and i have "psychiatric issues" . Truth is that this girl was all those things, she invaded my boundaries all the time and i yelled at her once to back off . But i yelled at her badly and she made so many fake rumors about me. I went to therapy for it and its called a narcissistic smear campaign and projection.
She did the same to a guy in my class who also suffered from depression and stopped coming to class because of her bullying. She made up fake rumors that he was a psycho and he was gay. He is not gay and he is my friend. She actually ran to hit him when he confronted her and fortunately his mother was there to witness this all.
During this i also went into a relationship with a older man, who shielded me from all the awful rumors about me. It was too much for me to take and that older man cheated on me but refused to leave me. I just ended up more depressed than ever and that older man left me during a pregnancy scare, i was not pregnant but it showed his true colors. He got me kicked out of my apartment and went back to his parents, and without telling me he was grooming another 17 year old on the internet and moved onto her. After this i fell into a deeper depression, i gained 90 lbs, i had to repeat a year of medical school because of low attendance.
I came out of when i graduated final year of medical school. I was finally happy and i made new friends. There was another girl, she also became obsessed with me so i had to block her, but she would ask a lot about me. I lost the 90lbs i gained during my internship in medical school and i was confident in my skin.
I was asked out by a surgeon, he started something romantic with me, i wasnt even touched by another human being in 3 years, so i agreed. But after a few weeks of lovebombing, gift giving, excessive attention, even asking me to move in with him (which i refused) . He lost all affection for me after our first night together, and looking back he assaulted me on our first night together. I kept going back to him even though he would never call me or text me . He started to neg me that i didn't know anything, i had no knowledge, i was dumb and stupid.
On our last night together i found a condom wrapper, he told me he was with other women and he doesn't owe me anything. He told me that on my birthday he visted a prostitute, thats why he didn't wish me. And he blocked me immediately and moved in with this girl in my class who absolutely hates me. Together they would stare at me at work, they would call me ugly and dumb with no capacity in my head and crazy. They would say im a jealous person but i wasnt jealous i was deeply vexed.
I kept my head down and kept working endlessly. I got my degree and i went to work so much i ended up with 6 digits in my bank account that im proud of. But on my last day of college i cried and i reached out to him again, and his new girl and him said im dumb and i dont have a brain and im ugly and i have false delusions. That im jealous. They also said im jealous of the obese girl who spread rumors about me, but i am not jealous of her at all. I got into medical school because of my merit. While she got into the same school because her parents paid twice the amount as me and even then she bribed to pass every exam. Then she took ozempic to lose all her weight and now she's a instagram Influencer with a large following, and i wouldn't be surprised if her following was bought as well.
Now im at home after finishing my degree. Its been 2 weeks. I wouldnt stop talking about the surgeon and his abuse towards me, which caused my parents to he physically abusive towards me, i have a black eye and a shattered spirit. I cant study for the life of me. Im just at home all day. My parents are physically abusive towards me, my mom tried to break my pinky finger in November, i showed it to the surgeon and he told me he couldn't care less. I asked his co worker about him and they told me he has a criminal record , he regularly visits prostitutes and hates women, then he blocks women after taking advantage of them. He has a new girlfriend that he lives with and they both bullied me together
This has deeply vexed me. I dont know what to do in life. I have no friends, my family hates me. I feel like a burden. Please help me how can i turn my life around and feel happy again.