My boyfriend died suddenly almost 15 years ago and I was absolutely devastated. It was abrupt and violent and I cried myself to sleep for months afterwards. I still carry a lot of grief and heaviness over it. My partner was older than me for context. He has a stepson that’s closer to my age than my partner was.
Several years after my boyfriend‘s death his stepson and I became friends. We‘d share stories about my boyfriend and talk about how much we missed him. We still talk about him.
It’s a lot of detail to get into on here but I think maybe his stepson has romantic feelings for me. He’s openly flirtatious with me and even invited himself over to my house late at night multiple times and crawled in bed next to me to sleep. Nothing happened. He asks for photos of me and asks a lot of questions about my dating life. Could I be misinterpreting things? Sure but I don’t think so. I just get a hunch the same way I got hunches with people in the past who turned out to be interested in me.
I‘m not sure how I feel about it honestly. I would feel a little strange about pursuing anything. My boyfriend meant everything to me and I would never want to disrespect his memory. Also I feel the step son could get a much more attractive mate than me so I feel odd about that too. In a lot of ways his step son understands me better than anyone else but obviously I’m still conflicted over it.
Am I totally wrong for ever thinking about it? Obviously it’s not a fresh loss as my partner has been gone many years but it’s still just odd to even think about it.