I can change, I can grow. I reflect on April and I realize more and more that I am ready to grow. To find a new job, new friends, to take my life in my own hands. I have spent a massive amount of time, tied down by my negative impression of myself. I’ve made many mistakes, some that have cost me great potential friendships and I must move on from this.
Introspection needs to be followed by action and I have been introspective. I know what I must do. Now is the time to make the changes I know will make me happier. To put my best foot forward. To stop the things that bring me down and take control of my life.
No one can change anyone else, and unsolicited help is often unappreciated and ultimately unwanted. This is a lesson that I have learned, forgotten and relearned this month. Also to respect the boundaries put forth by others, and to creat my own boundaries for my own mental health.
My theme for May is growth, my goal for May is to improve myself, my life, and though it will take time I have changed in the past and I will change in the future. It’s best those changes are self directed.
I will improve my diet, make an effort to find more friends and do my best to push past my inclination to apathy and bedrot to build those relationships. I will find a new job, I will volunteer more as that brings me contentment.
I believe in myself. I know what I need to do, I’ve always known. This time instead of giving up before and during the journey I will see it through. I hope I really find my people. My tribe or however you say it. I hope it works out but regardless, this time I promise myself I will not give up.