a bit of context, my childhood and my teenage years were all not that bad. School and college both were not stressful. I had friends to keep me company and most importantly had something to look forward to like what to do after I grew up how I would spend my time. But right now I’m 25 years old and I feel like I’m not going anywhere. I am stuck in a job which I don’t like and I don’t see any growth here and switching jobs. Seems so scary at the economy. Most of my friends have moved out or rather I have moved to a new city so I don’t have anyone here. Even dating seems so scary considering I feel like that time I spend on that person and I feel bad to say this, but even the money I would be spending on dates could be better spent somewhere else which would make me happier. I spend my times like an NPC character watching all kind of sports. I have nothing to look forward to. I have come to a realization that this is going to be my life.
well, I don’t want to be all downbeat here because I am still grateful that I have a job. I have food on my plate. I have a roof to live under and I try to spend my time with my parents by taking them out for lunch or to the movies I am really grateful for all these things.
But looking at how other people live with all the partying and you know relationships, getting married. having plans to buy their own house buying new cars, bikes I know comparison is the thief of joy. Maybe I don’t because if I did, I wouldn’t be posting all these stuff here.