Would a gay man enjoy this? Will I ever actually be able to bring this fantasy to life?
I have a pretty intense service/submission kink when it comes to older (could be the same age as me too, I'm 18), confident, successful gay men. Not just sexually either, but psychologically. I genuinely fantasize about belonging to someone in a very devoted, almost humiliating way.
Like being his servant/personal assistant. Driving him around, cooking for him, cleaning his apartment perfectly, arranging things for him, handling errands, giving him massages every night, making his life easier in every possible way. Quietly existing for his comfort and convenience.
And honestly, part of what turns me on is the imbalance itself. Him being more powerful and in control than me. Being treated like I’m “his servant" in a degrading but weirdly affectionate way. Being ordered around, ignored sometimes, used as a footrest jokingly, teased, kept at his side but never fully equal. Just being useful to him.
I don’t even necessarily imagine interfering with his romantic life. I'd probably arrange his dates too from booking a place to driving them around to prepping them before sex. It’s more the fantasy of being the loyal, devoted guy in the background whose purpose is making this man’s life smoother, easier, and more pleasurable.
And weirdly, being appreciated only occasionally almost makes it hotter to me.
Do gay men actually enjoy dynamics like this in real life? Has anyone here experienced something similar outside of fantasy/hookup culture?
I think It'll be a bit harder for me to find something like this since I am from India. Although I do live in the capital city where it easier to find a wealthier gay man who would be into this. What do you guys think?