u/Aware-Employee-4241

4 years ago I got my first piercing (septum, healed fine). 3 years ago I got a nostril piercing that I struggled a lot with so I took it out and repierced it. As of now I still have an unhealed nostril piercing (3th time repierced), an unhealed eyebrow piercing and a healed septum and lip piercing.

My question is, can I get 2 new piercings (lip and nostril on other side) or should I wait for my eyebrow and nostril to heal first? I heard someone say that having too many unhealed piercings can affect the healing process of others so yeah! Pls lmk!

I’m so tired of feeling like shit. I’m tired of waking up and feeling the depression crawling into my body. I’m tired of being too tired to do anything.

I’ve been depressed (and diagnosed) since I was 12. I’m 22 years old right now and nothing has changed. The only thing that has is the extra trauma, the amount of pain and the stress of life. Having to live a life while I don’t long for anything or anyone. My life is boring and empty and at the same time I’m stressed about everything where there is none.

I miss feeling genuine love. But all the love I’ve ever felt was just made up in my mind. I don’t think I’ll ever get to experience the real type of love I desire. I wish my first attempt hadn’t failed, because these years have so not been worth the wait.

Sometimes I’m just pissed off that I have to live. I didn’t ask for this. And now I’m not allowed to decide when I want to end it.

Today I had a very decent day, a great day even. I went to a concert with my friend and chose an outfit that I didn’t 100% feel good about ‘cause it was kinda out of my comfort zone. The concert was great, and I felt an amazing dopamine kick afterwards, but all the girls and boys there were so so pretty. It made me kinda insecure. When I got home and looked in the mirror I got so sad, cause I felt so ugly and I honestly hope no one noticed that I looked like that. It ruined my whole night and my whole life. My outfit looked dumb, my face looked weird and my hair looked like a hairdryer had blown up in my face. So everyone there was pretty, except me. It’s just embarrassing, especially ‘cause I put so much effort into trying to look good and ending up still looking ugly.

Back in primary and secondary school I always got bullied, probably because I wasn’t really pretty and my face just looked.. off. My hair was like a bird nest even though it was super healthy. Online I also got bullied for my looks, pictures of me would be send in group chats to make fun of me and my irl “friend” (back when I was like 11 or something) told me that if she looked as ugly as me she would’ve already killed herself.

I tried to learn makeup and after a few years I got pretty decent at it. But for some reason after I’ve put on my makeup, leave the house, come back and look in the mirror I just look weird and ugly again. I hate my face and I’m just so embarrassed of what I look like. I only like my face in the dark tbh. I hate that I have to live with this face for the rest of my life, that even with makeup I will never be better than “mid”. I don’t think I will ever be able to find someone who will love me because I’m just too ugly. Since age 14 I hate it when people take photo’s of me and when I have to I just start to cry.

I don’t know what to do and my face is the biggest reason why I think about killing myself. I’m just so ashamed of what I look like. I wish I could just vanish and erase every trace of me having ever existed.