u/Available_Horror9216

Hey everyone i don't know if I have cptsd it's hard to reach a therapy here due to multiple reasons but I always felt close to everyone experiences. Not long ago I went to our uncle house with my family from childhood i respected him from the deep of my heart but while growing up i started hating him he knows about our family problems when ever we fight he comes to me and tells me to hold up or to be strong or that I am the most responsible one of my family so I have to do my best for them... But i found out that I am the only one who been given advices because he can't take it when my family got anger. So what happened in that day is i had a fight with family member in their house just like usual he took me to a silent place and started giving me advices but then his son (my Cousin- he is in my same age) stepped in and said to his dad this : why are you blaming him! No matter how you look at it it's totally her fault why you always defend her like that.... That's it i cried right their the tears just came out on their own my body started shaking in a way I never felt before i just cried for a long time. The two of them went silence they didn't know what to do. I don't know i thought that maybe after seeing me like that my uncle would interfere (iam not joking when I said my body was shaking really hard) but nothing changed i just hate all the adults who knew everything but choosing not interfere

Me and my elder sister just passed our teenage age in the past she kept complaining me for not doing my daily chores and it was my fault so I thought i deserved her hate, but now after growing up a little i changed my behaviors. She came and yelled at me for not taking out the trash, now i take out the trash once a week without needing anyone to remind me. She yelled at me for not cleaning the house on my days, now i do it also without needing anyone to remind me.

She is so aggressive when telling me to do things like when She yelled at me for not taking out the trash i felt personal attacked so i became defensive and didn't admit my fault yet in the next day i took the trash and didn't needed her to remind me of that any more. And this is the pattern which always happens :she yells at me for not doing something >i became defensive and can't admit my fault >but from the next time on I do the thing by my own... But here is the problem after the day I took out the trash i came and talked with her normally but she still holding a grudge and didn't want to talk, i mean yes I didn't said sorry but I changed my behavior wasn't that the reason she yelled at me from the beginning? and when she found out that I completely do my home chores she started yelling at me for my relations with my friends and school stuff No matter how much things I change she always find a new reason to yell at me, i try to change that thing and then go to her and speak normally, but she seems still have remain anger, i let her for couple days so she can calm down then i go again to talk to her, but then she finds out a new wrong on me... I really need third person opinion am I doing something wrong?