u/AtmosphereCritical95

So i have this condition since i abuse hard drugs and psychedelics, but is possible to lucid dream with this condition ?

I’m choosing between Marosa, Nihue Rao Centro Espiritual, and Temple of the Way of Light.

I’m looking for:

• an experienced Shipibo maestro (real traditional lineage)
• a safe and well-contained setting
• a deep, visionary / spiritual ayahuasca experience
• something authentic, not just a “wellness retreat”

From what I understand:

• Temple = more structured
• Nihue Rao = very traditional/intense
• Marosa = smaller and more intimate

Which one would you recommend for the most visionary yet safe and traditional experience?

I’d like to know which ayahuasca retreat offers the best value for money, ideally one connected to the Shipibo lineage, and with the possibility of experiencing Bufo as well (or not). I’m 25 years old and I’ve been thinking about doing this for several years now.

I’ve had multiple experiences in the past with mushrooms, LSD, 4-AcO-DMT, 4-HO-DMT, changa, etc. However, I’ve now been sober from all substances for 4 years for personal reasons. I had serious struggles with drugs before (alcohol, opioids, stimulants, and others), and I feel like I need to do a retreat to finally close the door on that chapter of my life and truly understand what psychedelics were trying to show me back then.

At the time, I wasn’t in a good place mentally or emotionally, so even the deeper experiences never fully landed the way they should have. But now, at this stage in my life, I feel much more prepared and grounded.

I’m not looking for anything luxurious or commercialized — I want the real deal, something authentic and respectful of the tradition.

I’d like to know which ayahuasca retreat offers the best value for money, ideally one connected to the Shipibo lineage, and with the possibility of experiencing Bufo as well (or not). I’m 25 years old and I’ve been thinking about doing this for several years now.

I’ve had multiple experiences in the past with mushrooms, LSD, 4-AcO-DMT, 4-HO-DMT, changa, etc. However, I’ve now been sober from all substances for 4 years for personal reasons. I had serious struggles with drugs before (alcohol, opioids, stimulants, and others), and I feel like I need to do a retreat to finally close the door on that chapter of my life and truly understand what psychedelics were trying to show me back then.

At the time, I wasn’t in a good place mentally or emotionally, so even the deeper experiences never fully landed the way they should have. But now, at this stage in my life, I feel much more prepared and grounded.

I’m not looking for anything luxurious or commercialized . I want the real deal, something authentic and respectful of the tradition.

I used drugs from the age of 14 until I was 21. I started with weed, then MDMA and cocaine, then psychedelics (4-HO-MET, 4-AcO-DMT, MXE, etc). I could never stay sober for even a single day. I was addicted to being out of my mind and had a deep fascination with the human mind and psychedelics.

Then benzos and opioids came in and everything got fucked. I ended up in a coma for 3 days with multi-organ failure. When I got out of the hospital I was already using again.

I decided to go to a rehab clinic through cognitive behavioral therapy here in Portugal, where I live. I’m now 25 and I’ve been sober for almost 4 years.

Sometimes I wonder if one day I could ever use a psychedelic again without feeling guilty, or without feeling like I’m putting my life in danger. Can anyone relate or has anyone had similar experiences? Thanks.