u/Aromatic_Pick_5429

21F Everyone is talking about summer plans and I have no plans, no job, no car, single and have nothing going for myself except being in school. Most of the people I do know or talk to once in a while are atleast 30-1 hour away, and most have cars to drive. I’m just so over everything. I’m not hopeful for the future either, I only started hooking upwith like 2 other people to help, after breaking up with my boyfriend of 4 years after he cheated, now I’m going to be home for the summer with toxic family members and I’m scared for my future. Once I’m out of college who will I have?? What will I do??

Being lonely is painful enough but being lonely and unemployed is a slap in the face. I’m 21 and I recently got fired the first week of April from my job after getting hired mid February, I wasn’t there for long but they sat me down and told me that they didn’t think the job was right for me. I absolutely loved that job, got along with everyone, and they the staff and customers loved me as a server but because I wasn’t fast enough and missed small details I got fired… and now I’m back to square one but this time everyone that was close to me is out of my life. I transferred schools to be close to atleast the 4 people I thought I would and I lost 3 of them.. it’s like something doesn’t want me being happy.

I don't know why, but it's just so comforting, lying in bed is like someone's giving me a hug that I needed all day. I know my beds are not going to leave me, and it gives me comfort and peace. I don't have to prove anyone anything. I love being in solitude and living by myself, and I've always imagined myself in a couple of years living in a cottage all by myself.