u/Aromatic-Stand-2650

i was just wondering if this is relatable at all. it would feel nice to be understood. i think part of this has to do with my adhd but ive developed a constant need for stimulation usually instagram reels or youtube or i freak out and without it i only think about the horrible things that happened to me. does anyone else have the same experience? i feel so bad sitting and doomscrolling all day but im too unmotivated for hobbies and they dont bring me instant dopamine as social media would. it makes me feel like im wasting my life away which makes me so sad. idk how to stop my screen addiction.

my girlfriend passed away from an intentional overdose and i miss her so bad. i cuddle our stuffed animal we owned together and pretend its her and talk to it like its her:( and i was just wondering if she can see or feel that? in the afterlife?