u/AquaArcher273

I’m on a big weight loss journey right now and also plan on building my body in a certain way. Problem is the way I wanna build my body keeps changing depending on how masc or fem I’m feeling! When I’m fem I wanna go more femboy, lean, soft, slender, big ass, all that. When I’m more masc I wanna be bigger, build my arms and chest more. Like I kinda wanna go for abs ether way but the type of abs shifts too from wanting just slight abs when fem to full blown abs when masc.

It’s kinda making planing out my workout routine a nightmare. Does anyone know of like a perfect middle ground workout to go for or anything?

I’m 23 and have been repressing this side of me for a long time because of my highly conservative upbringing. I only accepted I was bi back in like 23’ and since then I’ve been discovering a lot more about myself since breaking away from that conservative mindset and going “woke”. I’ve been interested in going full femboy for awhile now and recently have even been struggling to figure out my gender, I’ve deduced I’m at bare minimum gender-fluid possibly even full blown trans. I don’t feel like I can fully express this side of me because I’m kinda trapped with my parents unable to move out.

Ive got long hair, I shave everything I can that won’t be visible to them, I’d really like to lose a lot of weight like ALOT of weight, and start dressing more how I’d like to. I just feel like it may be too late for me idk. I wish I hadn’t been raised by such bigots maybe I’d have realized this stuff earlier and been able to embrace it and work towards it when I was younger. Now I can’t stop thinking about my long hair falling out in a few years from my dad’s genetics, or not being able to lose weight fast enough to fit what I wanna look like.

Feel like I’m only looking for a better job rn just so I can afford to be myself and live on my own, buy and wear clothes I wanna wear, makeup, style my hair more. Idk, sorry for the rant I just can’t stop feeling like I’m idk wrong for wanting this or that I’ll never be able to look how I want and it’s too late for me. Being stuck with my bigoted parents makes it so much worse. Is it too late for me?