u/ApricotTundra33

I've been wanting to do swimming for years now, but always been too scared. But I'm finally pushing myself and have my first swimming lesson on Thursday.

However this will be the first time where anyone will be seeing most of my scars...I don't know what to expect or what I should do if someone says something ://

I wear t-shirts and shorts in summer n such, but even then the shorts are long and I only really wear them at home. I'm just nervous about people seeing, and I feel guilty that other people will have to see that - especially not so nice words... :/

Tho my upcoming lesson is the only reason I haven't self harmed this week!! so I guess that's a win

I seriously ate way too much (mostly fruit, peanut butter, and chocolate) and I was so disappointed in myself for overeating. But I thought because I'd eaten so much more than usual that I'd have more energy today right? Like I swear I ate more yesterday than I have all week. But for some reason I'm so so exhausted today. Like I feel so weak and tired, way worse than I have been feeling. I don't get it. I could barely walk home, it was so exhausting and such a struggle.

I have been eating a lot less and exercising a lot more lately, but I've been fairly okay so far. And I thought since I ate more that I would feel a bit better physically. So why do I feel so so awful and weak and exhausted??! I really just don't understand?!