u/Apprehensive-Bar2941

To M from another M

Since this thread is the ‘casual’ version of Unsent Letters, here goes…

hey 👋 i miss you. been thinking about you a lot recently. didn’t expect you would step back into my life if even very fleetingly. not sure i wanted it either.

what i feel for you, i wont call love. it’s something purer if that is possible. i know your flaws, i’ve seen some of them.

you’re competitive to a fault. you don’t like not being the movie crew, producer, and director, or in other words, not feeling full control.

you’re angry, but you hide it well. i can see it in your eyes.

you don’t like to lose control, which is probably why you texted me.

you lied to me about the reasons you couldn’t be with me. i may be innocent, but i’m not a fool. i’m not bitter, i just noticed.

you have a soft spot for the people you care about.

you have an ego that you try to conceal under excessive humility.

you’re responsible. you’re disciplined, respectful, and kind.

when i think of you i only pray you get the very best in life, that unwitting passion and happiness that only true romantic love can provide. the kind we discussed.

don’t text me for answers. i don’t have them.

keep creating that beautiful and inspiring life for you and your kids. perhaps one day we’ll meet again.

until then and with love,

M

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u/Apprehensive-Bar2941 — 5 hours ago

No longer a scream just a sad whimper

I’ve lost the fire to scream into the void, I’ll gain it back soon.

I can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t do the normal things a human does like get to work on time, and I was doing all of those things until somehow my body was somehow dragged to the ocean floor by this deadweight anchor.

Why is this happening again? I was doing so well. Until I wasn’t.

The numbness has encapsulated my body. I feel despair and hopelessness and restlessness at the same time. And devoid of joy.

Maybe I’m not as adaptable as I would like to believe. Maybe I’m not as productive as I thought. Maybe I can’t do it “all” and still be okay. Maybe my body needs a safe place to rest. Maybe my soul yearn for more, but my practical reality keeps me firmly chain to my corporate prison.

Maybe, maybe, maybe…

Or maybe it’s just time to break the chains and fly away.

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u/Apprehensive-Bar2941 — 5 hours ago