u/AnyAngle7212

A year or so ago, I lost 60 pounds. However, I lost it on a calorie deficit alone, not healthy eating or exercise. My diet for the last two years has consisted of brownies, peanut m&ms, candy corn, fries, and cake. I literally ate nothing of substance in 2 years. I am SO skinny fat, it’s ridiculous.

For the last year, I just let it be, because I was so happy to be within the normal weight range. Also because of severe depression. That really contributed to the junk food only thing.

A few days ago, I saw something on tv about a woman who was at a normal weight but ate like me, and she had fat all through her muscles. I got so grossed out that I started eating healthy, but it’s only been two days. I’m really afraid that I won’t be able to stick with it because I am still very depressed.

I am so frustrated because the people on the weight loss subs all get angry with me for posting there, even though I need to lose fat just as much as they do. Yes, I’m 5’6 and 129 lbs, but my muscles are so weak I can barely lift anything. I am no muscle and all fat.

Whenever I stop biting my nails, I have both ski jump and racquet nails. I’ve seen so many before and after pictures of other nail biters where their nails grew back normal that I’m led to believe my nails were crap to begin with, and maybe that’s why I started biting them. When I let them grow, the ski jump nails make it impossible for me to do little things like open a can of soda or peel an egg without breaking my nail in a very painful way, so this time (I’ve stopped biting again) I still bite my left thumb nail so I can use that finger for those little things that are impossible with my other fingers. My nails are so inconvenient. They feel like they’re just barely attached. And they are so ugly.