I'm too old for this
He came back after a year and a half. We went out on an amazing date together. He ghosted me again put of nowhere. Apparently he had a whole relationship with another person in the mean time. I was dumb enough to never move on. I don't know if I can even let go. I feel like a part of me died that day. I know it's irrational but I guess attachment issues are a bitch.
I was low key; I didn't really pressure him. I just stayed present and listened. I wasn't kind coz I thought he'd want me back. I just hoped he would be kind enough not to do that to me again. I feel so ugly and disgusting.
I'm not able to date because of the fear of getting ghosted/ abandoned. I wonder if I'm meant to be alone. The thought of that feels really heavy. Still I wake up, try to put on a smile and go on with my day. I hope the people on this subreddit find peace. I hope I find peace someday too.
Cheers!