u/Anarmyof3

I just have had the absolute worse time of my life post op and I don't know what kind of hell surgery unleashed. I'm losing my life.

I have lost my mind since surgical menapause.im 50 with one child left at home and no support except my husband.

Guess I'm looking for a friend. I'm not mentally stable.

I'm 50 and I'm wondering if I'm bi-polar 2. My mom was bipolar, my brother is

And I can't stop pacing around and talking and I look back on my life and I think I could have had some hypomanic episodes but I'm post op for PMDD.

They have several overlapping symptoms.

I'm pacing, and jumping around, can't concentrate on anything and I talk all the time. I say weird things that get stuck in my head.

I'm afraid of everything. I HAVE to stop this moving and vocal crap. My husband thinks it's anxiety.

Surgery scared the crap out of me.

Diagnosed with major Depressive disorder medication resistant generalized anxiety disorder with panic attacks, ADHD and agoraphobia.

But this pacing and moving and I can't sleep but I want to sleep I've tried everything to sleep.

I'm afraid of everything.

Anyone?!? I'm 50. And I think anxiety is doing this to me for almost a year and I'm on a benzo long term.

I had surgery and I'm in surgical menapause.

I'm humiliated. I can't seem to stop it! I was in a depression for a long time and I do have generalized anxiety disorder, maybe this is a different kind of depression then I'm used to...I used to sleep a lot be fine just staying in room. But I went places.

Ugh, there's no one like me😭 my Psychiatrist says she has never had a patient like me.

I've never been so negative in my life. I play my mistakes on repeat.

I don't know what is happening to me but this started after surgical menapause. I'm on a benzo (long term) I'm so embarrassed. I pace, jump, get stuck on repeat. This has been happening since July!! But it stops if I'm completely distracted which takes a lot. It stops at night. I'm 50!

This is causing me so much distress, driving my husband crazy and I try to control it around my 11 year old but I know that she notices.

I don't have much to stress out about. It's got to my nervous system because I have thought it was gone several times.

I have to stop this. I can't live like this. My Psychiatrist doesn't know what to do. Because it does stop sometimes. I do it even when I'm alone!

I spiral several times a day. I can't get out of my head.

I don't know what is happening to me. Psychiatrist wanted me to go to a Neurologist but still no appointment and now she knows that it stops so doesn't seem to be neurological.

It's like I got scared and can't get unscared. Stops at night but I can't sleep. I have been on Klonipin for a long time (please don't judge) I have tried everything. Stopped Estrogen so now I'm so hot EXTREME body heat.

It stops at night. I can't keep living like this!

I regret surgery. Over a year ago and I have spiralled. For me PMDD wasn't nearly as bad as this 🥺

I'm in surgical menapause gel was fluctuating too much. I had surgery for PMDD. I stopped the gel. Can't do oral because very high stroke risk.

Anyone able to do the Minivelle patch? Estrogen is my trigger. I didn't know. No chemical menopause. Climara would cause welts and peel off.

And I would panic.

I have Medicaid so options are limited. Surgery 2/7/25.

I feel SO much worse post op. Stopped gel 35 days ago. Can't sleep at all.

On Klonipin for anxiety. Other mental health conditions. I have tried so many sleep medications.

Wasn't sleeping with gel either and Progesterone didn't help sleep. Medicaid 🥺