u/AmordoBrasil

(Sorry, I am German and Cuban living in the USA and trying to not use a Translator)

So I am 22 now and nonbinary. But at one time, I was in School, this was all the way back to freshman/ninth year, and it was 2018. We had to dissect a Sheep's eye and I felt so bad for the poor Sheep. I was disgusted, too, and disturbed, so I cried. The Teacher asked if I was ok, pulled me to the side, and the Labpartner comforted me too.

I got bullied/made fun of and teased for the remainder of the School year, which wasn't very long as we did this in April or May. Anyway, people forgot all about it after Sophomore year, or seemed to, but it still made me sad that they called me a Baby for that reason.

Questioning BPD, everyone says I may have it. I (22NB) have a girlfriend (22F) and have for a year. I get very paranoid (I also have autism and bipolar BTW) and tend to yell at my girlfriend still, though less so, calling her a bad girlfriend sometimes and such and feel like whenever she's away, she's cheating and I get depressed. Even if she's just very close with her friends, I feel like she's cheating and I yell at her, but I always apologize and spam her with love afterwards. People keep saying this is love-bombing. I don't want to do that as I heard it's abusive. Help?? I definitely need therapy or something...

(Desculpa se cometer algum erro, o português é a minha terceira língua)

Então tenho (22NB) o autismo e o transtorno bipolar. Também tenho problemas com hiperfoco e apego à minha namorada. Minha namorada e eu namoramos há um ano. Tô muito, muito apegada a ela. Mando mensagens pra ela tipo um milhão de vezes por dia. Eu a considero minha alma gêmea. Cometeria crimes por ela.

Mas ás vezes minha mente acha q ela é infiel porque ela conversa com outros homens e com outras mulheres mesmo q ela seja lésbica. Também, ás vezes grito com ela devido a isso e digo coisas como "Você é uma namorada horrível!". Mas ela não é e as pessoas com que conversa são amigo dela. Sempre peço desculpas.

Acho que sou perigo pra mim mesmo pq sou impulsiva e fico deprimida.

Vcs têm algum conselho pra mim?