u/Altruistic-Future589

I’m 6.5 weeks pregnant, I can’t make up my mind on whether I want to keep the baby or not. My partner and I have had a rocky year I moved out due to him being on dating apps and gambling. I’m now living by myself but we’re trying to work things out

I have insane anxiety about what he’s family will say and how they’ll treat me as they all know what happened and helped me move out

I am ready to have a baby, but I’m scared he’ll cheat on me again even though he said it’s because I was always negative. He also said that he’s stopped gambling since we’ve been apart and said he saved $15k which he never could do with me due to gambling

He said if I get an abortion that’s it for us forever, I’m just scared because I want to be a mum I’m 29 years old and it’s all I want but I’m terrified of what everyone else will say and think and his family

I’m in Victoria, at what stage can I get an abortion untill it’s too late ?

I left my ex for cheating on me and generally had treated me horribly the last year of our relationship which he’d never been so bad to me. Hes gambling got worse that he blamed me for but this year the gambling has subsided. He’s all I think about, all I can think of is how much better his life is going to be because we aren’t together and he gets the upper hand because I left him

I have the screenshots of him on dating apps, messages between him and another women but he said it wasn’t like that

I can’t stop thinking of how he’ll give the next one everything I asked him for, that he’ll never think of me and everything I put up with was for nothing. Because he’s all I ever wanted and I’ll just be replaced

He said if I can’t get pass the past then we can’t move forward but we’ve never sat down and talked about what he did and why. I did everything for him, I cooked, cleaned, worked fulltime, put up with his moods and outbursts. He’s been nice to be since I moved out and thinks that’s his effort is enough and I’m holding us back

I am just a loser, always will be while he gets to thrive after me and be with someone way better than me while I’m absolutely broken into pieces and alone. I have no body while he has a good support network I’m so worthless and have nothing to show for my life.

Am I just living in the past (the cheating was in February) and it’s my fault I can’t get past it and we won’t work out?