I’m a 22 year old turning 23 Muslim girl. There’s this guy I’ve met who’s 19 turning 20 and he’s Christian. We like eachother but I think we are both worried about ruining our friendship since he’s pretty close with my family. He’s fasted Ramadan with us (did more days than me) 😭 and he’s learning gradually about Islam but I’m not sure if he would revert. Never had that conversation with him before. He actually looks out for me and cares for me and does so much. I’m pretty strict with myself when it comes to guys. I don’t talk to any guys unless I need too and I have never dated or can’t even remember the last time I had a crush.
My point is, I really like him. I’m only allowing my boundaries to keep us a friends at the moment but it hurts me abit that I feel like us talking might grow our feelings for eachother even more. Even the age gap at first made me think “I would never let this happen, or even like him”. I feel ashamed being a Muslim girl. The guilt of liking someone who’s from another religion but at the same time liking him a lot that I want to be with him. Idk I feel like I have been so good with my deen my entire like and to think that the only person I want I can’t even get makes me so sad. I always tell myself he’s young and he doesn’t know what he wants, yet he’s so adamant about wanting to get to know me more and looking after me. Obviously that’s bare minimum but ugh. Idk. I think I’ll just let time pass and see what happens and keep my boundaries as friends. But am I leading him on doing that. I feel we both know we like eachother but either of us hasn’t confessed cause we’re family friends. I remember he called my little sister and said that it wouldn’t work out cause we are from different religions yet he would sends gifts to me one day, send me money for food if I was ever stressed out and he’s so close with my siblings which is so admirable. I’m just confused and I need guidance on what to do and how to navigate my feelings as a Muslim girl.