I’m stuck
I’ve recently finished up my first year at Uni and it’s been okay, I’ve gotten dumped a bit ago(a month or so) but during that relationship I was kind of getting coached and advice from one of my other friends who I’ve been getting really close too. During the relationship and even after I’ve been getting really close with this friend. We’ve hung out a lot especially in our group setting and she’s really sweet and nice, like she’s so thoughtful and caring. We’ll be sitting in a group setting and she’ll like text me one of our inside things and it’s so funny to me, our third friend also refers to us as brain rotted and we argue who’s worse. She’s also so stunning, like it never really occurred to me, I was drinking at a friend’s place and I couldn’t help but miss her. I still like do miss her but I can’t bring myself to text her but we have plans to game together over the summer which I’m looking forward too. She also like replies to what songs I put on ig and it’s just heart aching. I know it’s not gonna happen but it still tugs at my mind wondering about her and I see her videos on TikTok and it’s just like “man I hate feeling like this because I know if I say anything it’ll ruin our connection and I’ll lose her”. I have more and more to say but I wanna keep it a little vague just in case, but also she was helping dry off my hair one time and I really enjoyed when she was messing with it like it was just weird. She also remembered my issues with eating and recommended smoothies and just paid attention to it, I’m thinking about it now more than ever. I don’t wanna make it awkward but I feel terrible thinking this way, it’s just miserable.