u/Affectionate_Ice6190

I've had a restrictive eating disorder for 15 years. I'm 29. I'm trying to recover, but today I ate about >!500!<g of vegetables and it's not even lunchtime yet.

Is this a binge? I'm terrified because I know disorders can change, and this fear is holding me back. I feel bloated and have negative feelings.

If it helps, I weigh >!41kg!< and I’m >!166cm!< tall.

I >!need to increase my calorie intake!<, but I keep putting it off. I'm always hungry, and it scares me. The first part of the day is really difficult: it's as if my brain wants to conserve calories for the rest of the day. Is this normal? What can I do to make things easier?

6 piece of regular salmon sashimi, a spoon of wakame salad, a cup (with skin) of edamame, ginger and wasabi.

How much is it?

I’m afraid it’s too much and I feel guilty