u/Adventurous_Edge8766

Hi ! I am still pretty new to babysitting, I am 19, going into an early childhood education major at my local university, I’ve signed up for sittercity (and care.com, but sittercity has more families in my area signed up). I’ve gotten my background check done, and now looking to get my cpr course started and finished (but hoping i’ll never need to use it 🙏). I was debating on who I should go through because of the costs, I have another job at my local rec but with summer coming hours are competitive and I only made 200 my past pay check for two weeks. I was looking at Red Cross which I can sign up to do a hybrid course for 60 dollars, or I can go through the website for National CPR Foundation for 15 dollars, cpr and first aid. I just don’t know how legit that website is and if they’ll accept it as a legit certification. Any advice will help !

I (f21) and my bf (m23) have been together for three years. we are each other’s first real relationship. When i found out he had a porn addiction i wasn’t surprised. not because of who he is, but because of the easy access at young ages and how common the addiction is even when it isn’t talk about main stream like other addictions. we’ve had 3 or 4 instances where we have had big talks about it, i always reassure him that this is normal just not talked about, he doesn’t loose value as a person for having this addiction, and that ill do whatever it takes to get him over it.
he has a pretty high drive normally, and for a while i didn’t and it got worse during then. which prompted us to the first major talk we had. so i felt like i had to step my game up which he assured wasn’t the issue. and then when i went away for school and wasn’t home and in town for a few weeks at a time im sure it worsened then too. but i’ve been back from school since december, 5 months now, we see each other regularly a few times a week. but the past few weeks his drive has been slowing down, or he would prefer a bj or doggy. the last time we did it, in the middle of it he ended up getting softer. fast forward he wanted to finish on my face. during it he barely looked at me and seemed just to be focusing on watching himself penetrate.
look i’m not stupid, i’ve watched porn myself, but now that i’m typing all of it out it feels like he’s reflecting it into our relationship, with the bj, doggy, facial, the dirty talk, and more. he’s assured me that he is attracted to me, and how much he loves me but it’s just getting hard because of his addiction. i feel like i wont ever be good enough, sexually and physically since i look nothing like in the videos, ive never found my body type and i know he’s not going out of his way to look for someone who looks like me. ive talked to him about it which he always reassures me but it just feels like a deeper and deeper pit in my heart when we talk about it again, or i notice the small things. he texted me about deleting insta and fb since his feed gets filled with the fake porn bots, or girls selling OF content, which his entire block list consists of those accounts, i encouraged it if he feels like it’s the right thing to do. other than that i just don’t know what to do anymore.