u/Adventurous_Brief815

I notice that when I interact with people who are heavily into certain types of energy work--such as reiki--that they stare deeply into my left eye. It makes me feel like they're looking for something, like they are only half-there with me when they're interacting, like they are trying to read me, all while keeping the interaction going. They have all been cordial individuals, but in one instance, I met one who knew my father at a holiday party. Her irises looked so angelic. We chatted a while because I was interested in learning about the things she knew. Physically, she had me cornered and up against a wall, and I began feeling drained. It was strange that although she was very well versed in energy work and other esoteric knowledge, that she couldn't pick up on social cues, or just be mindful of personal space. (I don't often like being touched or feeling trapped.) Another time, I was at a house party, and this woman was dancing and chatting with my sister and I, but after speaking and dancing for a while, she felt like she had to leave suddenly with her partner and seemed like she was in slight distress.

I'm wondering if I'm cursed or something. Or do I just scare some people? I have had reiki done on me once by someone else in a yoga class and, when the lady came around, I just remember seeing what seemed like television channels switching at a very rapid pace and abstract visual noise with my eyes closed. My eyes were darting trying to capture something what made sense. I was getting waves of arousal and spots of muscular tension.

For more of a backstory, I used to do reiki on myself for many years, now really knowing what it was or understanding it fully. I just noticed that when I placed my hands on painful areas, i would wake up feeling better. I still want to learn, and I know I have a long way to go--also in my personal life and relationships. I have a lot of metal energy in my bazi chart.

Does this have anything to do with it?

What does this all mean?

I want to make progress and I'm not sure if this is just me or if everyone experiences this at some point.

Good day,

My mother grew up consuming fish oil but did not continue after moving abroad. I got to visit her homeland of St Vincent and the Grenadines for the first time a few years ago and am currently getting more acquainted with my roots.

On my last visit, I bought fish oil in a Sunset bottle at the market just to try it. (I'm aware that it's very unpleasant, but I've heard it's very healthy.) I'm reaching out to the greater Caribbean community to get a better understanding of how best to use and preserve it. The one I have has been in a cooler environment and has a mild fishy smell with coagulation at the bottom.