u/Adventurous-Taste-22

Hoping I’m not alone when I say I am indescribably addicted to live rosin vape carts and have been for years.

At this point, I rely on the cart from the moment I wake to the moment I go to sleep - literally. The moment I try to “quit” my head is constantly filled with obsessive thoughts of how “good” the vape will feel once I hit it. And sure enough, I drive to the dispensary and rip the cart all day.

Like others, I use the cart to numb the pain from my miserable failure of a life I’ve lived.

My finances, relationships, and personal health have all suffered from my vape addiction. But for the life of me, I just can’t seem to quit.

I just feel hopeless. I used to be such a motivated, inspired guy with high hopes and dreams. I’m now a 29 year old loser with no direction or life inside of him.

3 years ago my (29) now ex gf (28) of 6 years was having an “emotional” affair with her married coworker.

Since then I’ve gained weight and lost any drive and motivation I had in life. I feel depleted, lost, hopeless, and overall just view every day as dark. I work at the same shitty job making crap money and I live at home in a high cost of living area.

I feel ever since I was cheated on, my life has continuously gone downhill while my ex has seemingly continued to grow and “level up” while I’m left to suffer.

I guess I’m just looking for any advice from anyone who has crawled out of this hopeless hole. My ex was the only relationship I’ve ever been in and the only woman I’ve ever loved. It’s hard for me to see a positive future the way my life has played out since the cheating occurred.

Thanks.