u/Adorable-Criticism68

It’s been 3.5 months since my breakup and I still feel emotionally stuck.

She was my first real love and we were together for almost 3 years. I made mistakes that hurt the relationship, especially lying, and ever since the breakup I’ve been stuck in a constant guilt trip replaying everything in my head and blaming myself for losing someone who meant everything to me.

I started therapy almost immediately after we broke up because mentally it completely destroyed me. Some days I’m okay, other days I randomly break down crying over memories or small reminders of her.

I’ve tried going on dates and distracting myself, but everything feels empty. Yesterday I even went out with a girl who clearly wanted to get physical, but even the thought felt wrong because emotionally I still feel attached to my ex.

I also sent her a happy birthday email a while back and never got a response. Part of me still overthinks it and wonders if I even sent it on the wrong date, even though deep down I know that probably wouldn’t change anything.

A few days ago I even left a note on her car with her favourite chocolate because I still had so many things I wanted to apologize for and say. I never got a response to that either.

The hardest part is that I still genuinely love her and still feel like she’s “my person,” while she’s probably already moving on with her life.

Long post ahead just needed it get this out.
It’s been 3 months since my breakup (February 4th)and I feel like I’m still stuck in the same place.

She was my first serious relationship (2.5 years), and I messed it up. I lied, I broke her trust, and I fully own that. At the time I didn’t understand how much damage I was doing, but now I do, and that realization hits me every day.

She blocked me early on and waited to return my things a month later due to me being in a car accident on valentines day. It felt like everything just ended overnight. No closure, no real goodbye, just gone.

I reached out to apologize and also sent her a birthday message, but she never replied. Part of me even keeps thinking maybe I got the date wrong, even though I know deep down that’s probably not the reason.

I still think about her every single day. I miss her, I miss our routine, I miss how normal life felt with her. It’s like everything reminds me of her.

And the worst part is I keep fighting myself not to reach out. Every day there’s this urge to do something, anything, just to feel close to her again. Lately I’ve even been thinking about leaving a letter on her car, just to finally say everything I didn’t get to say.

I know it probably wouldn’t change anything. I know she’s gone. But part of me just can’t let go.

I’ve started therapy and I’m trying to fix myself and understand why I did what I did. I don’t want to be that person again. But at the same time, I’m still here, missing someone who clearly doesn’t want me in her life anymore.

It just feels like I’m stuck between accepting it’s over and still hoping somehow it’s not.

It’s been almost 3 months since my breakup from my first serious relationship (2.5 years), and I’m still struggling.

It ended mostly because of my mistakes, which I fully take responsibility for. She blocked me everywhere early on and returned my things, so there’s been no contact.

I still think about her every day and miss her a lot. Even now, I have to stop myself from reaching out almost daily.

I’ve started therapy since the breakup and I’m trying to work on myself, but I still feel stuck between moving on and holding onto hope.

Is this normal after 3 months? How did you actually let go?