u/Admirable-Resist4975

I (23F) was diagnosed with OCD about a year ago. I got a new psych a few weeks ago. My previous one I felt didn’t listen to me, ask questions, or care. Just wanted the money. It made me question and doubt my diagnosis.

My new psych evaluated me and asked such in depth questions and went into themes and just went over things my last psych didn’t care to do.

I feel happy? Relieved and at ease. Like hey, I wasn’t going insane and I infact do have OCD. This feels real now.

We’re coming up with a plan to move forward with this. A change to my meds, how we manage this, etc. I feel heard.

I guess I just wanted to see if anyone else has questioned their diagnosis, and why? What has helped the most with coping and managing? I have a therapist as well who I work with, but it’s nice hearing other’s experiences too. It’s not so lonely after all.

TLDR: I (23F) got diagnosed with OCD a year ago. I got a new psych recently because I questioned/doubted my last psych and my diagnosis due to her lack of care. My new psych confirmed my OCD diagnosis and I feel good, but this now feels really real.

So, I’ve (23F) been in a long depressive episode, and I started turning to alcohol a year or so ago. I’ve come to terms that I’m an alcoholic and I’ve been working thru it with my therapist.

Alcohol has consumed my life in every aspect. It clashes with my mental, and mixes bad with my meds (which should stop me, but hasn’t). I’ve made mistakes that I can’t take back and have had to come to terms with. I’ve fallen into a cycle.

I tried having a “schedule” to drink. Drink on Fridays and have a me day. But it just led to me craving it during the week more and that was the only thing getting me thru. Just got to a point where I started drinking every day again.

I talked to my therapist, and being fully sober is what needs to happen right now. For myself. My relationships. They sent me AA resources and is encouraging me to talk to my psych on Thursday during my appointment.

I’m scared. I’m not ready. I have all of these emotions and feelings and apart of me wants to keep self sabotaging my life, but apart of me knows that needs to not happen.

Thank you for reading this all of the way thru if you did. This is going to be a journey.

The past couple of months I’ve been going thru such an intense depressive episode. Lash outs, anger, depression, self harm, etc.

I don’t want to be here and I feel like I’m staying only for my family. Not for me. And that hurts me.

I want to be happy and have a future and I have so many goals in life, but they’re slowly being consumed by this depression.

I’m scared. I’m scared of what I’m capable of when it comes to myself. I want to end it all and it’s such an overwhelming feeling. I’m grasping at anything to keep me here.

All I can turn to is drinking myself to death. I’ve fallen into a cycle of alcohol and this makes none of this easier.

I’m really struggling. Looking for any type of support. I have a therapist, and I’m slowly opening up. But I’m scared.