I’m a sophomore in high school (M16) and I recently met this girl. I never got her name, but my first time interacting with her was her having me by the collar and punching me while her friends watched now whenever she sees me, she takes the liberty to push me and punch my arm I think she’s cute and I unfortunately developed a slight attraction to her and I don’t know why maybe I’m just so much of a friendless loser that I’ll take any attention from a pretty girl or maybe bullying just does something for me. I don’t know, but I don’t exactly like having these feelings because she is an eighth grader so I feel weird about it. I mean there’s only three weeks left of school so next year she’ll be a ninth grader but I still feel weird. I could also just be delusional because I think I just like the idea of someone being moderately interested in me because she goes out of her way to get my attention and whenever she interacts with me, it never seems like she has any malice in her intentions. It just seems like she likes messing with me and I don’t give her much of a reaction either.
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(For context I go to a small private school that goes from 1th grade to 12th)
So i’m in my second year of high school 16yo and my school was having field day and after one of the first games, I left to go eat lunch I was walking outside past some bench tables, where a couple of my senior friends were sitting and hanging out with two other girls when they see me they got up and start messing with me jokingly saying this was a girl‘s only spot and now they had to beat me up one girl who I never got the name of kind of cornered me, and then grabbed my collar she then started play hitting me as everyone else followed suit. I just let it happen because I knew they were just joking around. Now keep the girl who grabbed me by the collar in the back of your mind because she is the center of what I’m going to talk about. I had seen her around with the seniors before so I vaguely knew her face. Now I know that she’s not in high school. And I know she’s a part of middle school, but I don’t know the exact grade. I’m just gonna hope for eighth. Anyway, later on, I overheard people talking about a water fight with water, balloons, and water guns and I had been inside for most of. The game since now so I thought I could at least go and check it out. I didn’t exactly want to get wet so I wasn’t gonna be participating but be an observer so I go over to where it’s being held and it seems it had already started so people were running from each other during water balloons, and shooting each other with water and as I’m spectating everything I see that girl again she comes over, intending on throwing a water balloon at me. I put my hands up and back away telling her I just wanted to observe not participate, but I could tell she didn’t care and I wasn’t exactly too worried about it because I knew what I was getting into so she ends up corner me again and she throws a water balloon at me it bounced off anti-climatically and now out of balloons. We just stand there then she asks my name I tell her and she says “you know I see you around, and I kind of thought you were an NPC” i’m guessing she meant that to say “I didn’t take you to be a social person” in which she would be right I have some crippling social anxiety and often don’t know how to keep a conversation going so I respond saying “I am” looking back at it. I was pretty lame to say but it’s probably not that big of a deal. She was walking away as I said it too, so it doesn’t matter the last interaction we had. After the seniors tried throwing water balloons at me I retaliated by getting a water, balloon myself and chucking at square at one of them in front of collar girl I ran away from my life as they had more water balloons when I got away I was walking with a couple of my classmates talking to them and she found me by herself now ran over and just pushed me. I could tell there’s no malicious intent. She was just being playful, so I just laughed it off and kept walking. The thing is I never fully acknowledge what she does or pay her too much attention and this wasn’t exactly on purpose. This was more habit probably because this was a girl I didn’t know and wasn’t fully comfortable with to talk to, and then here’s the part where I feel like I wish I could’ve did something different I was gonna go back inside and I was walking towards the door. It was only like 10 feet away. I see her about to leave and on instinct again to protect myself. I try to avoid social interaction again and turn around to find a different route and I really hate that part of me that just does that and I’m working on it but I really wish I could’ve just walked by ask for her name said bye because that would’ve just been a friendly thing to do. Where my confliction lies is in how I feel about her now I’m sure most people are thinking from the way. I described our interactions that I’m attracted to being bullied in which I say maybe a little bit but I’ve dated a girl younger than me before, and I swore I would never do that again mostly because maturity is a very important quality to me mostly because of your childish I lose attraction. I’m honestly not looking for anything long-term right now. I just like to have some fun because as much as I am extremely lonely, I would like to mend that loneliness we’re friendship more than a serious romantic relationship, but anyway, I don’t even know this girl‘s age and I think it’s kind of weird for a high schooler today to middle schooler. If I’m worried about her being an eighth grade she’d be a ninth grader next year, but even still it’d probably be a little weird but that’s if she even likes me I could be mistreating but (and this is not me being cocky) I am pretty conventionally attractive girls have hit on me before finding out how socially awkward I am.maybe I’m just being delusional but I feel like we had a couple moments. I don’t know how to feel. should I try to pursue something? Should I just leave it alone? Is it worth that? I even want to get with her in the first place is my attraction towards her just me being desperate and lonely? Do I just have a bullying kink? I don’t know!? next time I see her should I say something she think I’m some weirdo Sophomore who doesn’t have people his own age to talk to should I just wait for her to come to me? I’m just so confused
I’m kind of a skeptic when I was in elementary school. All I wanted was superpowers. I learned about telekinesis and kinesis powers, and I tried getting them. I looked up all the tutorials. I meditated. I even did that thing with an eraser in a needle with a folded paper. And nothing ever worked I’m 16 now and in my second year of high school and every now and then I still get curious and wonder if it’s real or not I’m gonna be honest. I’m just a huge nerd and a big fan of jujutsu Kaisen for those who haven’t heard of it it’s pretty similar to what you guys talk about. They use energy to manifest powers, but I don’t know if you guys fight evil spirits are not which I guess brings me to my question I know that the real point of what you all do is to reach enlightenment and to have a better state of mind so most of you, I presume live normal lives like me, but I’ve seen a couple posts talking about having telekinesis or being able to use supernatural abilities and maybe this is just the extent of the human mind and just shows how powerful we really are when we put our minds to it but why would we have these powers at least deep down in us? Why would we have that? Is there a force out there that needs to be beaten and it can only be defeated with these powers are there actually cursed spirits out there that only the enlightened can see?
I always thought that a series Was only to tell long form stories or multiple stories at once, but I’ve recently have been told that series in the case of what I was told television is so things like mystery and stuff like that can thrive and themes can be put across episodes. I don’t know if what I just described. The made sense but what I’m trying to ask is that what sort of the difference? Other than long and short are the structures between these two forms of storytelling? I do personally really struggle with short form storytelling because I primarily watch a lot more TV show shows that I do movies so I’d like to know if there is a certain way or I guess a certain mindset to have when writing a shorter form story from beginning middle to end vendor is for a series in which the first episode or part or book sets up the beginning other parts form the middle so on and so forth.