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Me and my boyfriend have been together for 6 months and I truly love him so much but I’ve noticed whenever we cuddle ‘too much’, I feel a bit uncomfortable and which makes me start overthinking about whether I love him which I know I do.
I don’t know if this is relevant but I suffer from anxiety and depression which is constantly putting me on edge and I’m a massive overthinker so if he acts a little bit off I assume the worst.
I guess I just sort of want to know why I feel like this and how I can strengthen our relationship

I’m a 17 year old female and I love my boyfriend, I’ve been with him for 6 months but when we were in the talking stage, I stupidly sent tit pics to one of his friends which was thought very last minute and I regret it so much, we ended up telling him about it and now he can never trust me and i don’t know what to do.
I know it was fucking stupid of me and I will accept any criticism from it but I wish I never did it.
I cry nearly everyday and I want to see him happy with me but we have fights everyday and everytime he tells me that he can’t trust me which really hurts. I always end up crying after we tell eachother things and he tells me that he still loves me and promises to never break up with me.
We are together nearly everyday and I get really scared when he’s not nearby.
He tells me about all the things that I’ve done to hurt him and I’ve tried really hard to change and he’s told me that he’s seen me change but he clearly can’t help but have a distance towards me.
He jokes all the time about me gonna cheat on him in the future and he jokes about calling me a hoe and stuff like that and I tell him that I don’t like it but I understand why he does it.

I’ve been getting really bad panic attacks recently to the point where I just want to die. I constantly want to hurt myself and I can’t do it around him.
I don’t know what to do, I don’t wanna break up with him and he tells me that he doesn’t want to break up with me, and I’m scared I’ve ruined life for him.

I’m a 17 year old female and I love my boyfriend, I’ve been with him for 6 months but when we were in the talking stage, I stupidly sent tit pics to one of his friends which was thought very last minute and I regret it so much, we ended up telling him about it and now he can never trust me and i don’t know what to do.
I know it was fucking stupid of me and I will accept any criticism from it but I wish I never did it.
I cry nearly everyday and I want to see him happy with me but we have fights everyday and everytime he tells me that he can’t trust me which really hurts. I always end up crying after we tell eachother things and he tells me that he still loves me and promises to never break up with me.
We are together nearly everyday and I get really scared when he’s not nearby.
He tells me about all the things that I’ve done to hurt him and I’ve tried really hard to change and he’s told me that he’s seen me change but he clearly can’t help but have a distance towards me.
He jokes all the time about me gonna cheat on him in the future and he jokes about calling me a hoe and stuff like that and I tell him that I don’t like it but I understand why he does it.

I’ve been getting really bad panic attacks recently to the point where I just want to die. I constantly want to hurt myself and I can’t do it around him.
I don’t know what to do, I don’t wanna break up with him and he tells me that he doesn’t want to break up with me, and I’m scared I’ve ruined life for him.