10 week Pregnant and anxious
10 weeks pregnant and I am loosing my shit
For context:
First pregnancy ended in Miscarriage
I am epileptic and that adds more stress as I have bi-weekly blood draws and EEG to monitor my epilepsy
Currently I am taking 17-18 tablets a day plus daily injections to protect the pregnancy
I have been a fit person doing workouts for almost a decade now and perfect BMI and yet this pregnancy medications are too much for me
To top it all , currently in Middle East hence the war uncertainty
And yes I can’t just pack my bag and return to India as our parents are from small town with little access to medical care and we don’t have any source of income apart from our salary
Every day I keep thinking whether it is a right decision to have baby even though we have been planning for more a year considering my epilepsy medications to be changes etc changed
I feel so depressed that i don’t even like to talk to anyone
Our families still doesn’t know yet as we are planning to tell around 12 weeks
My husband is very supportive very loving btw so that part is sorted
I don’t know if this feeling is right or if people go through such emotions .Writing this has filled my eyes with tears and I have no idea why
TlDR: Hugh risk pregnancy and living in Middle East and that is making me rethink my decision