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does anyone else feel like nobody understands the severity of what happened or when’s you try to tell people you can tell they just do not understand how bad you feel

I’m so tired of existing I feel like nothing I do is good enough I’m excersiing and doing good things for my self and I still feel numb and guilty because people I love have to deal with this lifeless version of me

i am trying to get slim and I don’t know if this an asshole thing to say, but I am tired of skinny people complaining to me that they’re skinny. I know some people too even with eating disorders and I am fucked up for envying them for not wanting to eat. I don’t know how these people just don’t want to. how is that even possible, and when they tell me their weight it gets me so annoyed. I’m just sick of it.

im 19F and I got bullied as a freshman in highschool. I was picked at when there was a substitute and constantly made fun of for my laugh or for the way I acted, I guess I didn’t act in a socially acceptable way. I was loud, forward, outgoing. my own friends decided to befriend my bullies and i was the laughing stock because I was so reactive, I yelled at my bullies and at the time didn’t understand jokes so I was just someone to make fun of. to this day I am very very paranoid. I am worried all the time that everybody secretely hates me and I feel like I cannot trust anyone. sometimes i start to think too hard about how mean people are and it freaks me out. I’m in a relationship and I am constantly worrying that people secretely hate me and hate that I am happy. I am not just protective over my self but I feel I can’t tell anyone any good or bad news, I’m just so paranoid all the time.