“Hey, I'm so sorry this has taken so long but I hope the explanation that comes with the rest of this message will explain why I was such an absolute complete unreasonable dick
So two days before my last message to you, my ex of 2 years went missing, his mum, grandparents, teachers, everyone I knew was looking for him. after four days his body was found. Assumed suicide but still not sure. As you could assume this fucked me over, as it would anyone, and I didn't want to get myself into a situation where someone I loved could cause me that much pain again. Though we werent together at the time of his passing, you never really forget someone that was such a big part of your life for so long.
This isnt to make you feel sorry for me or give me sympathy, its here as the best form of apology I can give you. I know it's not enough for what i could have/did put you through I just wanted you to know it wasnt anything you did wrong, as much as it was myself working through different problems and dealing with them in a way that was completely irrational and all in all rude and disrespectful to you
again, i honestly am really really sorry for what i did x”
What should i do?