u/Acceptable-View12

I’m 19F and my friend is almost 20 soon, but we’re both the same age. We don’t meet up much and only do it once a month, we’re both busy so we tend to just chat online and keep up with the streaks. I just want to make it clear that I don’t hate my friend, I hate what she’s planning to do. We’re both employed but she decided to quit her job recently and get another one with the help of her other friend since she said her previous job wasn’t paying her much compared to her coworkers. I told her maybe it’s because she is still new and learning, she denied it. Ngl, she got paid more than me even though our jobs are the exact same field, but she’s always been someone who is ambitious.

Today she texted me and was venting about how frustrating it was to pay the bills and be the main provider for her family, her parents don’t work btw and it’s very dysfunctional. I sometimes transfer money to her since her parents take advantage of her bank and use up all her earnings, it’s cause I feel bad and also frustrated at her parents who REFUSE to even get a job. Then she told me that she wants to start an OF for a side job so she can save the earnings from there. That’s when I was kinda mad at her because I’m against porn and the sex industry, I don’t think OF is empowering woman, you’re joining the system that uses women. She also has agreed with me in the past so this just made me even more pissed. I know her situation is really difficult, parents are bums, bills on her, and I have also told her in the past to stop spending money on movies, nails, DoorDash, and extra shit she doesn’t need. She told me she doesn’t want to argue with me cause she doesn’t want to lose me, I’m still pissed. I don’t want to be friends with someone who doesn’t respect herself and voluntarily becomes what she so was against?? I don’t want to end our friendship too and I’m actually crying as I’m typing. I feel like a shit friend for not supporting her BUT I just can’t go against my own morals. Any advice???

(19F)

Just got diagnosed with autism and adhd and I can’t believe how much I cried. I was fearing that I’ll be worthless and lonely throughout my life, I’m nearing 20 and had so much depression/dread building up.

Throughout my childhood I always felt different and lacked actual connections with people and focused more on the online world. School never felt comfortable for me since I had social anxiety which the staffs picked up and noticed, even discussing with my parents, who ignored it in denial. I dealt with anger issues growing up, constantly questioning myself and wondering why I was so far behind everyone in terms of intelligence and maturity despite being actually smart and creative when I tried or wanted to. But school felt so draining and scary, I basically stopped going and did online. I felt like a failure, I felt alone in my struggles like I was basically an outcast. I always felt like I had to wear a ‘mask’, quiet at school but loud and confident at home. I had stims that were subtle but persistent, one was a very bad one where it basically ruined my lip structure. Because of my undiagnosed issues, I developed several other mental disorders along the way. It’s also such a humbling experience when you meet others and they instantly pick up on your ‘weirdness’, I’ve been called the r slur by people and family just because I need extra explanation or I say random things that come to mind.

Can’t stop crying. I wish I had gotten this diagnosis when I was little. I wonder how my life would’ve been like. My childhood was ruined + lots of trauma.

(19F)

I have pain in my stomach that feels like it’s burning or stretching and it hurts I wanna cry, but no unexplained weight loss, black tarry stools, difficulty swallowing, heartburn, or vomiting blood. My stomach feels like it’s moving or burning randomly like today. It’s fine for a month but sometimes it randomly starts. It just woke me up today at 5 am and I was sweating from the pain and nauseous. It felt like it would slowly hurt and then stop and come back. Then it lasted for two hours after I laid on my left and rested my head on the pillow. I sometimes sit up when I feel it coming and it vanishes. Now I feel fine. I also ate a donut at 2 am before I slept at 4 am. If I walk again it feels like im sweating again and gonna barf but it’s not that bad. But I lie on my bed and it eases it. Am I overreacting? My uncle had stomach cancer and went through surgery, I’m afraid. I never had these problems until recently but it’s not frequent. I’m getting so much anxiety and I’m crying, I can’t even afford the hospital. It feels like most of the stomach symptoms don’t appear for me except for the stomach part. What is happening please🫩 my anxiety is worsening.

What I ate yesterday ( Chicken and rice, shrimp and rice, and a donut.)

Water: Two bottles