It's really hard for me to care for loved ones when they're sick due to my OCD. My OCD is so health and illness focused, it's like they'll tell me any symptom and the moment it lies outside of a common cold I get so anxious and worry about them. I worry I make the call to go to an urgent care too soon or that I make big deals out of nothing. It sucks.
Twice in the last week I've had periods where I noticed my heart rate go into the 130's, climb to 150's, then usually take a few seconds to go back down once I lay down and do some deep breathing. I usually get really anxious at that time and scared. I've contacted my doctors and will be seeing them soon regarding it.
I'm really terrified it's NSVT, SVT. Etc... i know you can't know for sure unless its caught, I totally get that, but I'm starting to spiral.
Ive had a clean echo and nuclear stress test. My PVC/PAC burden at it's highest is 3.6%.
Like I said, I'm spiraling. All these ideas of getting a cardiac MRI and it being bad, me being on the edge of catastrophe and not being able to do anything about it. Im really terrified.
For those with it, idk, any "Hey, im alive!" Or "My mri was clean!" Advice would be...really nice.
Won't go into details (because thats kinda why im all upset haha) but I have a new medical thing that I was hoping to get some support for. Went to the appropriate subreddit for the condition...
And it always plays out the same, almost every time.
People coming onto a medical sub saying "Hey, newly diagnosed and just wanting support. Having a hard time handling this mentally"
And theres always one person coming in like "Oh, yeah....I remember mine actually was SUPER bad and DANGEROUS and doctors were SHOCKED and we have NO IDEA HOW IT HAPPENED"
Like cool! Thanks! Im already struggling in every which way about an OCD fear possibly coming true and now its like im adding "could turn into this person's situation!" Onto my list.
I know it isnt wrong for people to share their experiences...Like, I get it. Part of these subs is for all to get support. Those who are struggling, those who were hurt, those who have it mild to severe.
But honestly, I dont get it. In what world would I come across someone newly diagnosed and from what most express having things mild and decide to comment "Well watch out!!!!!!!" Like yeah man thanks. That's what I needed in a moment of fear.