u/ADGamer1208

Im tired and struggling with no one to help me

Im a 17M so this may not seem very serious but honestly I feel horrible. Im struggling with school so much due to having no support with it. My parents are immigrants so they have no connections nor knowledge of the education system. The struggle with school affects me deeply because Ive basically tied my identity to it. The “friends” ive made over here are some that I do not like. They shame people based on academic standing and intelligence and I want to distance myself from them but if i do I fear I wont be able to make any more friends because im socially inept. Im overwhelmed with the amount of choices I have to make so I end up following what they do and it never helps. I googled burnout and apparently I show severe symptoms of it. I dont want to ask my parents for a therapist because I feel like sometimes im just overblowing it. Other times I cry myself to sleep hating who I am and how lonely I am. I have thoughts that I would end up lonely after my parents pass away because no one likes me for who I am.

Sorry for wasting your time with this. I’d appreciate some pointers and how to navigate this.

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u/ADGamer1208 — 5 days ago

Pretty common title but I’m really struggling. I have always struggled with perfectionism and never feeling good enough. I decide to do things but as soon as I get ready to do them, I tire out. For example, whenever I steel myself to study, i end up procrastinating and just push off my work. I wanted to get fitter so I made a plan with no exceptions, as soon as the day came I made up excuses on why not to exercise and later ended up feeling horrible. Same goes for cleaning and basically every aspect of my life currently. All of this has led to me just basically hating myself. I don’t like who I am but that same person is holding me back from changing myself for the better. Due to me losing my drive and motivation to work I really don’t have any direction or idea on what I want to do in the future. There’s nothing fun in my life that I look forward to anymore.

I just need help to stop me from doing this and find something worthwhile.

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u/ADGamer1208 — 15 days ago

Pretty common title but I’m really struggling. I (17M) have always struggled with perfectionism and never feeling good enough. I decide to do things but as soon as I get ready to do them, I tire out. For example, whenever I steel myself to study, i end up procrastinating and just push off my work. I wanted to get fitter so I made a plan with no exceptions, as soon as the day came I made up excuses on why not to exercise and later ended up feeling horrible. Same goes for cleaning and basically every aspect of my life currently. All of this has led to me just basically hating myself. I don’t like who I am but that same person is holding me back from changing myself for the better. Due to me losing my drive and motivation to work I really don’t have any direction or idea on what I want to do in the future. There’s nothing fun in my life that I look forward to anymore.

I just need help to stop me from doing this and find something worthwhile.

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u/ADGamer1208 — 17 days ago