Im tired and struggling with no one to help me
Im a 17M so this may not seem very serious but honestly I feel horrible. Im struggling with school so much due to having no support with it. My parents are immigrants so they have no connections nor knowledge of the education system. The struggle with school affects me deeply because Ive basically tied my identity to it. The “friends” ive made over here are some that I do not like. They shame people based on academic standing and intelligence and I want to distance myself from them but if i do I fear I wont be able to make any more friends because im socially inept. Im overwhelmed with the amount of choices I have to make so I end up following what they do and it never helps. I googled burnout and apparently I show severe symptoms of it. I dont want to ask my parents for a therapist because I feel like sometimes im just overblowing it. Other times I cry myself to sleep hating who I am and how lonely I am. I have thoughts that I would end up lonely after my parents pass away because no one likes me for who I am.
Sorry for wasting your time with this. I’d appreciate some pointers and how to navigate this.