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Turned my back on my family for you, part 2 !

I failed to mention, we stayed in the same area. So, if we ever wanted to hang out, it was no problem for him or I to catch the bus and “kick it”, yk? Around this time, I was also knee deep into my first job, pulling the craziest hours, and having off days were honestly a blessing!! Anyway, the summer money was good, and what i had left over i used to, in my words, “Update my avatar”. I didn’t grow up with a lot of money, and being in high-school before this, i wasn’t able to do what normal teenagers do. Experiment, try new things, go to new places. Especially since, I wasn’t on good terms with my family. ANYWAYS…

I started wanting piercings, and a new hair do. Every time i set out to get a piercing, guess who wanted to tag along? Mhmmm. I also noticed, he’d get the same piercings as me.. update soon.

Gather around homies & homettes, we have a storytime!

You ever break up with someone, and realize, “you never gave me a reason to love you”? YEAH, that was me! You can only beat around the bush so long with, low-no effort, excuses, unreasonable desires, and etc. he cheated, and I should’ve known better.

- I am F20, but this story took place over the summer when I just turned 19. For the sake of my sanity, I refuse to speak of his name. “Jessie” will be his alias, mk?

One day, I was on a FaceTime call with my friend, (we’ll call her ‘Lex) who I’ve been close with for about 8-9 years, reminiscing about our elementary days. She loves the PlayStation, and always updates me when she’s playing with people we went to school with since, at one point, we were all friends. This one particular day, she mentioned to me that an old classmate of mine (who’s had a crush on me in the past) wanted to get back in contact with me after these few years of not seeing each other or hearing from one another.

Now, backstory. I wasn’t close with him, and genuinely, i was avoiding him. See, the thing is, in middle school, I dated his friend. At the same time while I dated his friend, he still had a crush on me. I didn’t want to be the reason their friendship separated so i did my best to, “let him down easy” before i just down right told him bluntly i wasn’t interested. Now, here’s the fucking kicker to that! Before I dated his friend, (which well from now on call Sean, so there’s no confusion) Sean liked me. At the time of Sean liking me, i didn’t like him back because I actually had feelings for Jessie. Jessie and I were as thick as thieves in our history class. We couldn’t be separated. He was a funny guy. A smart, and patient guy. He was always so gentle with me. From there i began to like him, yet i never told him. At the time, Jessie didn’t like me, and simply wanted to be friends, so the crush of mine faded, and that’s when i learned his friend, Sean had a deep crush on me. Sean and I didn’t begin talking immediately after. Instead, we got closer towards our 8th grade graduation. we started dating, and that was that. So, if you didn’t catch that, or im just VERY poor at explaining lol, I liked his friend when he liked me, and his friend liked me when i liked him. Stupid kids shit, right? Yeah, got it!

ANYWAY, Lex begins to fill me in on the things Jessie has been saying about me to her, and his other friends, mind you, he’s also still friends with Sean .. MY EX. She told me how he found my Instagram, and would watch my highlights curious about what happened after middle school, and what I’ve been up to. He made suggestive comments about my appearance, and the things he’d “do to me” if he had the chance. Can we get a red flag, anyone?! Overall, i was disgusted with most of his commentary, because later kept hinting that he was saying more things like this. Not sure, what sparked my brain to do this dumb shit, but i ended up finding his instagram to follow him. “Idiot”, yeah, i know, bud. I told her, i wanted to make him admit what he was saying, and apologize for viewing me, and other girls like that (which i assumed he did because, why were you so comfortable to do that to me? Sounds like you’ve done it before).

** Gotta finish this later, ya girl is hungry something serioussssss. Brb.

If you’re a member of the FD or DT community, you’d know as a member there’s so much to do. On the floor, behind the register, in the backrooms etc.

One thing I’ve noticed is, the ASM get lazy, and don’t train the new workers as they’re supposed to! Instead, they just give them advice & nag, then afterwards, go about their day. I hate to break it to you, but that’s NOT training ??? A few new members arrived at my store, which it’s better to have more hands helping out… problem is, they don’t. Nobody takes initiative, or asks questions. I’m a CSR, and I damn near am called on to do everything. For the past 3-5 nights, I’ve done Recovery ( put back + carts ) alone. I’m not a manager, but I find myself always taking initiative to show them what to do. Idk, everybody, lock in ! #takeinitiative