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Im a person with severe rumination ocd, and my latest obsession has lasted 5 months, couple weeks ago I’ve noticed my brain is kind of getting bored of it, and fortunately I’m getting back to my counting, checking, "physical” ocd.
I’ve never been this relieved and happy, I know that physical ocd isn’t anything good either, but I feel so relieved that the reason I can’t sleep is because I haven’t coughed 10 times, instead of 5 hours of rethinking something from 3 years ago.
My rumination ocd has always gotten severe, once causing psychotic episodes for me, I need to go on meds everytime I have a rumination obsession, and now my current obsession has finally left me

(I dont know if I should call this a vent, I just really wanted to share my feelings and see if there are any people who understand this).

I’ve been diagnosed since I was 11, and since I was just a little kid I couldn’t force myself to feeling empathy towards living beings, especially animals and babies. I’ve been often called heartless and deranged for this, but I really cannot change this. I’ve spoken to my therapist about it many times, but she seemed like she doesn’t understand it and only helped me with my lack of empathy towards babies, explaining that because they don’t really act or look humanely, I might find them weird.

The thing is, I am very intensely empathetic towards objects. But only objects that don’t resemble humans or animals in any way. I’ve been like this since always and I really can’t find a name or a reason for that.
Once I was shopping for groceries with my friends, and I took money only for the groceries. When we started looking at furniture, there was a pile of very cheap, small pillows with a very unpleasant texture. My friends started laughing and saying „why would anyone want these they are too small and so unpleasant to touch” and I almost started crying. I felt so heartbroken and sad that I spent my money on both of these pillows instead of groceries. I still sleep with the pillows, I hug them everytime I clean my bed and I feel so incredibly guilty for my friends making fun of them. Everytime I even think of them and that day I want to cry. I’m a grown man, and I feel so incredibly invalid for not being able to shed a tear on animal abuse or child abuse, while I can’t get over someone mistreating objects

I don’t use VK at all, I know nothing about this site, but I really want to watch a show that’s only available there, but whenever I enter the VK site, the captcha doesn’t let me in. I don’t use ad blockers or extensions, I don’t use vpn either, is there any way to bypass it or can someone tell me what’s wrong with it? I don’t speak Russian

Hey, my first post here, and as I’m lately watching lots of dress to impress videos on YouTube, I’ve noticed that lots of high rank players rate other high rank players 4/5 stars no matter if their outfit was good or if it was on theme?

I don’t want to be hateful or give any names, but as I was watching one YouTuber casually play on regular servers, they rated all the fashion maven and runway queen players 2/3 stars, and when a top model player came they ranked them 5 stars even though the outfit was same style and quality as lower rank players?

I don’t want to be hateful, I’m respectfully asking cause I haven’t been in this community for a while, and I just noticed this. Any thoughts?