u/1_of_6

If I go beyond eight hours without getting a chemical in my system I basically feel like a ball of razor blades and tar. Just pure agony. I haven't been truly sober for over two decades and I'm just trying this last year...

I don't understand how anyone can live with feeling like this. I wish I didn't have someone who depends on me because being sober is not a life worth living. I'd rather be dead. I feel so bleak and hopeless knowing this is what I have to feel like the rest of my life without any escape.

I hope I get hit by a truck or something