Psycho Neighbors
Hello everyone!
I live in an apartment building and I’ve been feeling very anxious about some noises and things I overheard from my neighbors. For context, I’m 19F and suffer from anxiety and sometimes paranoia.
These next door neighbors (a couple with a toddler) have been tormenting me for the past 2/3 years, since when they’ve moved in. They kept banging on the wall even while I was normally talking at 9 pm or stuff like that.
They’re the noisiest ever though, especially her. She screams and shouts all the time, throws things around and makes a lot of other noise. Also her child runs and cries all the time, but that’s not an issue for me; she’s the one that sounds crazy.
Things deteriorated even more when 3 months ago, me and a friend of mine were laughing (it was about 3:40 pm), and that neighbor banged on the wall like crazy and started insulting us and threatening us (we heard her talking about us on the phone, with how loud, on purpose, she was being). That event literally made me have PTSD, I’m not even kidding. I’ve been thinking about it over and over again. For reference, those neighbors also have on going bad feuds with almost everyone in their apartment building.
Yesterday, I overheard a conversation through the wall. It was fragmented, but I heard things like someone repeatedly saying “what am I supposed to tell them” (said by the guy) and “you get so fixated on some things”. There were also comments about music and general apartment noise. Yes, I do often listen to music in my apartment but always at normal hours and medium volume.
Because of this, I started worrying that they might be talking about me. I also overheard something about someone always leaving lights on, which made me worry they might be referring to me because I sometimes leave lights on when I go out. This morning I listened to music again and I’m so paranoid because of it, which is crazy because everything I do in my own house feels like I’m breaking the law. I regret having listened to music this morning after what happened yesterday.
After this, I started feeling very paranoid and anxious, and I began worrying about everything. I also started overthinking every noise and became very alert to sounds from the wall. Everyone makes noise after all, and I don’t consider myself a noisy person. The only thing I do is listen to music at normal hours and sometimes my dog barks, yet the response from those neighbors have always so threatening and scary to me. And, as I said, she makes A LOT of noise and always has, but like shouting and screaming all the time, and if not her then it’s her son.
Right after I heard them talking about me yesterday I had a very bad panic attack. I started trembling and crying.
Now I’m feeling stuck in a loop of anxiety where I keep replaying what I heard and trying to figure out if it was about me or not, and it’s making me scared to even leave my apartment.
I’m trying to understand whether I’m overthinking this or if I should be concerned about ongoing tension with neighbors in an apartment building environment.
Sorry for the long post.