Just the regular, clear orange bar of glycerin soap.
I've been trying to look it up and some places say sandalwood while others say frankincense. I find it a very pleasant skin scent, and i'd love to find similar scents.
I'm so frustrated and miserable. We played I think 25+ rounds with 8 friends, and they all realised I have a hard time doing the assigned tasks while looking out and guessing who is going to kill me, so I just get picked off in the first round nearly every round.
The map is deliberately designed to be confusing with very little orientation, great. So a good chunk of my brain is just trying to figure out how to get from grey area A to grey area B.
I hate not being able to participate in a game, but then the guessing and lying starts. Oh boy. Trying to see who is lying. Another autism issue. It's exhausting, and then I say one truthful thing and get murdered by the group while being innocent, so I spend even more time dead and unable to talk.
The only time I was made the killer was the very end I was exhausted from double-masking and trying to do everything I just gave up because trying to lie to my friends felt so miserable. I don't want to come up with excuses to trick people. This doesn't feel like skill (because there is no way for me to become more skilled at this game) I want to just be on a team with my friends.
I hate it. It was miserable. My friends couldn't understand why I was not getting any better at the game and went from picking on me to cajoling me for being bad. (They also have dozens of hours played, while this was my first time) they even threw in a few r-slurs because they were having such a great time "teaching me with tough love"
This is actually going to take several days to process and decompress from all the re-traumatizing stress bubbling up from years of school bullying that they just don't understand. I kniw everyone will just say "oh, dump them as friends" they're my long-time social circle, and I'm not about to gut myself because I hate one style of game. It's the game that's making them turn into competitive lying bullies; when we play co-op stuff, they're good, helpful friends.
Have you played betrayal-style games like among us or similar? What was your experience? I'm sure there are autistic people who are good at and enjoy this game, but for me it's just hitting every single weak point and vulnerability of my particular flavour.