I was wondering about getting sterilized in the future for a while now, and this might be my only concern. I like my belly button a lot, does it change permanety or does it go back to what it was after recovery? Will I have a scar on it? I know that this is a stupid question and being steril should worth more than my belly button, but I wanted to ask you about this.
When I found out last year, what aroace is, I maybe felt more seen than ever and was very happy when started identify this way.
Then I found a really good friend after lots of loneliness and we got along very well. Soon, he confessed romantic feelings and we fogured out that I might be in love with him too. I was okay with it, I knew that love is a spectrum.
We spent much time together, had lots of fun and after a few months decided to explore sexuality. We got into a relationship. It wasn't traditional, I liked to call it QPR and our friendship was the first priority.
I have to say, I got depressed. Sexuality triggered my depression. I went down quickly. It wasn't a wise decision, but we had sex. It wasn't easy for me, but I wanted to make him happy. I feel like I wasn't really myself back then. I recently realised that it wasn't healthy for me, so we broke up.
But I realised something that makes me really sad. When I'm tired or sad, I become horny for no reason. Horniness is a really uncomfortable feeling to me. It's bad, and I have never felt it before my relationship ever. I was soooo happy and confortable in my aroace identity! I feel like I'm grieving the person I used to be and I'll never really be myself again. Do you guys have any advice?