Feeling burnt out already
Hi all, made a throw away account for this.
I finished basic training at the beginning of January, got deployed to the front mid January, and I'm still here.
The first month it was fine because we had a good amount of food and water but since then we lost some supply drop drones, it just went down hill since February I've been on 500ml - 1L of water and maybe 1000-1200kcals a day, I've lost a stupid amount of weight, pretty sure I got TBI as well.
This is my first mission and I feel like a bitch for saying this but I feel burnt out already, somethings not right. I was surprisingly confident on my first infil, confident in my first gun fight and first time being attacked by drones, but since being here this long something has switched. After spending months having my position being hit by artillery and drones everyday, the lack of food and water, the incompetent command I feel myself not only getting physically weak but mentally too.
Im scared to exfil, there's mines everywhere, drones everywhere, I wasn't like this before during infil I was fired up and excited, now I'm just tired and scared... After spending an extended period on the front is this normal? I wanted to make a career out of this, stay in Ukraine, get out the military and look into private security/military work but I can't carry on like this for years. Maybe I'll transfer to a drone team or strictly assault/storm team after. Just wanted to know if it's normal to feel this way after an extended period on the front, or maybe this just isn't for me