r/u_432_2316

I wake up at the end of my restless nights with this feeling of failure and unworthiness. My mind races trying to pick up pieces of where we left off. I spin in circles looking for answers or a solution to figure out the problems. When is it enough? Why can't we just say "You know we both got in each other's life because of love and understanding that's how you fix this. Plain simple not too hard to just love one another. Yeah the past has pushed us to believe this fairytale that it's going to be a disaster like most of our endeavors in love. See me and you are a lot alike. We love so passionately and never got the chance to look at each other's flaws and embrace them and accept that we would never destroy each other for the sake of love. TSA you're my sunflower the most beautiful flower in the world. Not one time have I set out to destroy you in a million years I'd still be there waiting for you. I made a promise to never leave you. I will not go back on that promise. Yes I've made mistakes. I've lied to you. I've done unspeakable things that I'm ashamed of. But not once will I ever destroy you. I need answers some type of clarity in all the times I wake up and you're gone. This time I think I know where you're at. Silent treatment is not my strength. It is destroying me. I won't fall out of love with you. I'll fight tooth and nail for you. I find all your lost items. Just found some more and returned them to you. I want so bad to see you. Distant and silence are slowly breaking me apart. Will you pick up the pieces? Will you reach out in the light and pull me out of this dark cold lonely place? Or did I destroy you? Wish you would know that I am here for you. Wish you would know I love you. Wish no one would ever have hurt you so that you built this wall that seems impossible to ever get through. Will you just please love me?