Tips on overcoming school trauma?
I’m 15, and I’ve been homeschooling for about a year now. I started doing homeschooling because I was having a lot of panic attacks and not learning anything in school, just sitting in the corner silently crying. I struggle with autism, adhd, ocd, and depression.
But I have a lot of trauma surrounding school for multiple reasons:
#1: I was bullied for years. never physically, but verbally, especially because of my chronic pain and how I wasnt good at sports. when I would be on one of those kids teams, they would groan and go “ugh, why’d she have to be on my team?” this kind of stuff has been going on since 5th grade. I have an IEP plan, which allows me to bring stuffed animals to school for emotional support, and kids would constantly call me a baby and try to take my plushies to taunt me.
#2: I had many teachers who pushed me past my limit in different subjects because I was good at reading and had a large vocabulary for my age, but it stressed me out and I didn’t understand any of it.
#3: Walking around all day made me despise school just because of how much fatigue it gave me.
#4: I had a very hard time with kids talking in class, since I couldn’t focus unless it was quiet.
Even though I’m homeschooling now, I still have a lot of stress around school, especially math. I cry over math problems almost every day. I used to have a lot of fun with math, but ever since I started algebra, it’s been a living hell.
Any tips would be appreciated, I would love to have fun with learning and get actual advice instead of ”just try to be happy” or “just have fun doing it!”