Since "Born sinner" dropped i was 12 I became the biggest fan of J. Cole , I don't remember myself spending a day without listening to "Friday night lights" or "the warm up".
As someone who fell in love with basketball and had aspirations and hoop dreams, i related so much to his music and lyrics... His music had moved me in ways no other music has.
And not just in basketball but in life in general, the guy had an immense impact on my personal growth journey, from relationships to academic life to social interactions and overall the philosophy I've been seeing the world with.
A hungry college young man with dreams and inspiration to make it out off the mediocre life who is self-aware, self critical and seek growth on a daily had every reason to relate to a rapper like J. Cole.
His albums used to be like gospel to me and moved me a lot.
I loved "the come up" mixtape and listen to it in my morning workout making me have the drive to workout at 5 am
I loved "the warmup" "the sideline story" and "Friday night lights" and the "Off season "because they reminded me how much I love Basketball and listening to it before a game or a practice made me want to compete against anyone.
I loved "born sinner " because it reminded me how much it should be the test from the materialistic and sexual aspects of the success and truly in love what I do for the sake of it not the glamour that comes with it.
I loved "2014 hills drive" and "4your eyes only" because you reminded me of how much I need to grow and people for my family, my friends and basically everyone in my entourage. And how much I should grow as an individual and be the best man I can be and not falling into my desires and stay true who I am and who God wants me to be.
But since the apology (iykyk) I kind of became so desensitised to his music and everything he says became very taboo to me and I can't take it serious. It's not genuine anymore and it felt like a character a little did I know that his most anticipated album ever "the fall off " would feel worse and more disappointing. The worst part is that he did not shut the fuck up after releasing it. The guy went on a tour of podcasts and start talking about his competitiveness was made up and his warrior spirit wasn't real and this really felt like a betrayal.
No, I cannot enjoy a single Draco song anymore, even if I am still having the same mentality but the lyrics don't feel real anymore.