r/isthisnormal

So birthday is at 13 i celebrated with my fam my bday in 12 so i didn’t get the chance to be with my bf until today that is 13th i know we are meeting right but i just feels si weird knowing that he is not that romantic about i know that even when we meet all what he is gonna say is happy birthday no other sweet words no nothing i feel like im being a drama queen but im not sure abt (mind he never sends long texts explaining how much he loves me or so even when i asked for them ) in our 2years of us being tgthr he only sent i think 2 texts that are explaining his love for but it’s that long or even creative (he claims that he finds it very fake and cheesy)

I really don't feel the need to be loved. I'm really confused because people are in relationships and looking to get married. I never felt the feeling to date or to get someone and I get anxiety because I feel this isn't normal. Like people talk about getting someone as if it's the lottery or something special, but I don't find it to be like that and I'm really confused by it. It's not that I'm selfish I'm just soo comfortable single and I really don't feel like I'm missing out. I also feel soo free and just soo happy with music, movies and stuff.

I don't know what it is. I never had that desperation and I get really scared. I don't despise women. If I see someone attractive I I appreciate their beauty and do talk to them but I never get this feeling like I HAVE TO GET THEM OR NEED TO BE LOVED.

I am really worried something is up with me.

I don't even get this loneliness feeling.

I don't know why I dont get this obsession to find Someone and start a family.

I feel like I should do it because everyone else is.

Am I the only one who is like this.

Also I find myself overly happy just being me. I feel that I should be depressed and desperate to find love like every human being.