u/HeresJohnny26

I really don't feel the need to be loved. I'm really confused because people are in relationships and looking to get married. I never felt the feeling to date or to get someone and I get anxiety because I feel this isn't normal. Like people talk about getting someone as if it's the lottery or something special, but I don't find it to be like that and I'm really confused by it. It's not that I'm selfish I'm just soo comfortable single and I really don't feel like I'm missing out. I also feel soo free and just soo happy with music, movies and stuff.

I don't know what it is. I never had that desperation and I get really scared. I don't despise women. If I see someone attractive I I appreciate their beauty and do talk to them but I never get this feeling like I HAVE TO GET THEM OR NEED TO BE LOVED.

I am really worried something is up with me.

I don't even get this loneliness feeling.

I don't know why I dont get this obsession to find Someone and start a family.

I feel like I should do it because everyone else is.

Am I the only one who is like this.

Also I find myself overly happy just being me. I feel that I should be depressed and desperate to find love like every human being.

I don't know if this is normal behaviour but... if I decide to do a number 2 at work, I will try to poop as quick as possible very quickly in a rush before anyone comes in to the toilet as I don't want anyone to know I'm doing a no 2. When I'm done I keep looking back at the toilet to make sure its flushed - I end up looking again to make sure lool.

If someone is already in the toilet I will try to avoid doing no2 and wait for the other person to be done with their business and go again when its empty (work toilets only have 2 toilets and are pretty close together.)

If I'm already in the toilet about to do no2, and someone comes into the toilets and I notice there is someone there too, I will go on silent mode and wait for the opportunity for there to be some distraction/ noise where I can then poop quickly or I would sit there in silence and wait for them to go and then quickly poop.

Also do any of you shiver when you see disgusting toilets where people haven't flushed properly or have kept it unclean?

Lool I think im the only one who is like this. I feel that I have to be a ninja in the toilets lool

I loved playing this, but at the same time that alert noise when my ships were getting attacked scared me. The music was soo beautiful in this game and soo mysterious. I don't know what it was but the music sounded soo sinister and ancient. There were times when it felt like you were exploring the passage of time, there was this discovery sort of music when you build your empire.

What terrified me was the game over music when you are defeated. I got shivers from that. It didn't have to hit that hard.

Did anyone else get a feeling like that?